Sometimes I don’t realize that tension and anxiety has built up in me. I feel like I have everything under control, and if I can just get A B & C done, I will feel better – ready for my overnight getaway. As the time to slip away gets closer, I feel too busy, think maybe I should cancel – even if it is my birthday. My husband takes care of the final details, and I reluctantly gather my things and get in the van. As we begin driving I force myself to look around – to take in the scenery and focus on the journey. When we reach camp I begin to relax. We take a bike ride and begin to make dinner, enjoying the fresh air.
That evening after a lovely meal we hang out under the stars by a campfire. My tension melts away, and I know I am glad that we came. The next day we have a relaxing breakfast, and I take some time to play in my journal.
I love to play with the shadows the sunshine creates.
In this moment I smile and believe that I am enough; that anything is possible. I know life will always pull me back into the crazy, the overwhelming, the discouraging, the not enough (in fact this is a few weeks later and life has already done so), so I cherish these moments.
These are memories to bring back when life is bringing me down, when things aren’t going as I imagine they should. I visualize these moments and remember they are possible. I remember to take just a moment to create one now, in my backyard, in this moment. These moments are life, too, the most important part!